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Bad days

I realized that I haven't blogged in ages. Anyway I feel terrible. It's been such a hectic week chasing after people for work they owe me. I've been having bad days on a regular basis for the past few weeks and I just can't help but wonder why. Did I do something wrong? Is god punishing me? I hope not! I've been slipping up so much at work that it's beginning to affect my confidence. I feel so embarrassed when something goes wrong and is my fault. I feel like a letdown. Sigh. Hopefully there will be better days to come. 50 more days till the end of my service. I can survive that. I must persevere!

New Toys!

A few moments ago, I was sitting in my room looking around when I had a sudden realisation. Over the past few months, I've been buying and accumulating quite a number of gadgets and electronics! I think I have a new found interest in them. I keep reading reviews and I want to buy so many! If only I had the money, ah well. Anyway, here are a few new stuff that I bought and I love playing with them.

First off, we have the classic iPod touch which I have began to depend on heavily for my music and entertainment. The part I love best about the iPod Touch is it's ability to access the internet! No longer do I need to turn on the computer to use it. Yipee! I bought my 8GB iPod Touch for $308 during the Comex Fair in 2009, last year.

Next, we have my new speaker system! Finally I have speakers that are able to play tracks at their higest quality. It's an Altec Lansing VS2421 that I bought at Comex last year too. The best part is that I got it at a steal. Only $69!!! It's original price was $89 but since all of them were sold out by the time I decided to buy it, the sales person offered me the display set. Even though, it had a dent at the side, I'm not complaining! it still looks brand new and plays awesome quality music.

Thirdly, we have my favourite product, my new laptop, the HP Pavilion DM3-1023TX. It comes with Windows 7 Home Premium, an Intel Core Duo Processor at 2.26GHz, an Nvidia GeForce G 105M 512MB DDR3-800 VRAM, 4GB Ram and a 500GB HDD. I bought this at Harvey Norman in January for $1599. It's sleek, slim, shiny, had a Mac-style keyboard and best of all, is fingerprint and scratch-proof! From now on, I shall get notebooks that have metal, and only metal casings. The battery life's great, I've spent over 4 hours on this baby before and it still has juice left! I love love love it. The only thing I regret is buying it so early. I knew I should have waited until the PC Show to get it! It was selling at only $1299 with 100 free songs! :(

I did get a few freebies though so I guess that kind of makes up for the $300 lost but not a lot. I did like the freebies though. I got a Genius notebook cooling fan the NB 100 which I think is great. It's small, portable and quiet. It also doesn't have those irritating lights that you see on those cheapo transparent cooling fans.
On top of that, I got a Sensonic Glaser Mouse G30.

A Toshiba 4GB Thumb Drive

A pair of Sensonic S22+ speakers which are...ok I guess, though I hardly use it, a set of crappy Sensonic Headphones, and of course, a complimentary HP laptop bag.
In the period between the buying of my laptop and the PC Show, I couldn't resist buying something so I decided to spend money on a portable USB wireless N adapter, a D-Link DWA-130 for my PC which is not connected to the internet. It costs me $37 in Harvey Norman so I guess that's quite ok. And then the PC Show came, so I went to buy more stuff! It's about time I bought a new camera so I decided to look for good deals. I ended up buying a Canon Ixus 120 IS for $439 which in my opinion, looks great and takes excellent pictures. Black was sold out so I had to settle for second best, Brown. I wanted to get the Canon S90 though but it was way out of my family's budget, at over $700 so we had to settle for something more affordable. Either way, I'm happy I've got a new camera. I look forward to take loads of good quality pics when I'm in Shanghai at the end of this week.




The camera came with an extra battery, an extra Pen Drive 8GB memory card, free casing, a cool laptop bag and a huge calculator that has minimalist look. Feels great to touch, perfect for my mother!
Last but not least, I also got myself a new Imation Venus 320GB Hard Disk Drive at the PC Show. It was selling at a good price too, $79 down from $89 on the 2nd last day of the fair.

As you can probably tell, I'm very satisfied with my new toys! I'm pleased they have good reviews too! :D

Will 2010 be a good year?

So I'm in my bed unable to sleep due to my usual worries and thinking, "wow 2009 is finally over." THANK GOD! I have officially declared it the worst year of my life in my 19 years of existence. So much drama and conflict. I hated it. Then again I found who your true friends are, how much they care about you and the comfort they can give you when you are down in the dumps. Seriously, like the "oh my god I'm so depressed, I want to kill myself" kind of dumps. I've become much closer with my friends, family and God. For that, there were at least a few happy moments in 2009. On a side note, I also got to meet and unfortunately experience the craziest, most horrible, ignorant, irritating, uncaring and corrupted (in mind, soul and just about everything else) people there could possibly be around. I used to think people are nice in general. That view is gone now.

I hope 2010 will be a good year. A lot of people say that they have a feeling it will be. I have my doubts though. It mostly revolves around my military life. I'm worried sick and I'm losing sleep over it. Ugh. What one of my good friends said is true, the army really is a parallel world.

I went for the countdown by myself again as usual. I didn't really that the 'nice' feeling this year but whatever. I'm quite pissed by the way the police handled the crowd though. It took me an hour just to get from the Esplanade Bridge to Raffles Place MRT, with much shuffing. I came to the conclusion that Singapore would be great if it weren't for the Singaporeans. Ironic huh? I'm becoming a more bleak and pessimistic person by the day. It's probably because I'm dealing with more unpleasant people by the day. At work, outside, you can't escape them. I get frustrated with the slightest thing now. Complain complain complain...I'm like a typical Singaporean now! Whatever man, I'm just going to try to enjoy the last bits of my wondeful 1 month break before plunging back into the bleak, real world on Jan 4. Sigh.

The Swiss are racist!

My suspicions have been confirmed! The Swiss are indeed racist! I always felt that they were. I had a wonderful holiday in Switzerland but one thing that kept on bugging me was the seemingly unfriendly nature of the Swiss. Maybe it's just me? I don't know. They didn't come across as a very friendly and welcoming bunch of people, compared to London and Paris where I felt very welcomed. I suppose it's because of the homogeneous make up of the country. I hardly saw anyone who were Asian, Black, Latino and so on. It was White all the way. I remember coming accross a few people especially train conductors who always seemed to give us an unhappy or unfriendly look when checking our tickets. This despite me smiling when handing over them. Oddly enough, when the conductor goes over to the white person sitting on the other side of the train, he can be so friendly and polite, smiling all the way. Implicit racism? I'd say so. On top of that, if you want to be a citizen of Switzerland, you'll need to get approval from the community in which you'll be living in. I've read stories about how people who are of other races being rejected because of their colour. Apparently, Muslims and people from the Balkans and Africa are the most likely to be rejected and now they've succeeded in banning the building of minarets at mosques, claiming that it would "encourage Islamic extremism." Quite strange if I may say so. How can towers encourage people to be extremist? It seems to be more of an excuse than a justifiable reason. Fremdenfeindlicher Schweizer? I say Ja!

I can't stop this feeling I've got

I don't know how to describe. I feel like my happiness is going away and my sadness is coming back with each passing. Not a day passes without me having a "down" moment. I try to shrug off my "unhealthy thoughts" but they always come back to me eventually. It's tiring. I hate uncertainty. The outside world can be a very scary place. Why must life be so complicated when I want it to be simple? Control control control! I need control in my life!

On a side note, I've moved back to Bishan. The renovations are like 95% done. Just need to make some final touches and decoration before I put up pics! Thank God it's done. The house like an oasis of calm for me. Mmmmm warm and fuzzy; familiar feeling.

I've moved!

In case you don't you, I've moved to an old 2-room condo in Clementi temporarily. My house is being fully renovated. About time; I've been living in the same house all my life and I'm so excited about the new house! I'm going to make my room super nice haha. It'll have cove lighting, the wardrobe will have lights when you open the door, bedside table with a lamp like those in hotels, an LCD TV (I hope) right infront of my bed and a study that stretches the length of the window. Pics are below! My house is like a disaster zone now. They've just finished hacking and it looks like Srebrenisa or Sarajevo during the Bosnian War. Penny said it looked like someone broght a machine gun into my house and trigger happied lol.

The Old House - Living & Dining Room

During Renovation - Master Bedroom
During Renovation - Living Room & Balcony
My favourite pic - Kitchen!

During Renovation - Bedroom
New Kitchen
New Common Toilet - Not this colour scheme
My Room!
Sister's Room

Spare Room

New Master Bedroom
New Master Toilet

New Master Toilet

New Living Room

I love my new house!

Not to forget......

I almost died packing and moving. The car was stuffed!