Meh.

I think what Aaron said the other day was right, I am getting more and more angsty lately. Grrr, I can't help it though, almost everything is starting to irritate me even if its something trivial. I'm also getting the feeling that I'm starting to alienate everyone. I hate the stress of being in J2. My plans have not been going to plan and it doesn't help that unexpected, unplesant things come up all the time....like having to remain in school for an extra 1.5 hours for CLB. God I hate the language policy. Because of it, I end school after 5pm 4 times a week. How the hell am I suppose to study and have a social life when I spend more hours in school than my parents do at work. And because of the late hours, I'm having problems studying at home cos I usually collapse on my bed once I get home. I don't have the time or energy to exercise and train for NAPFA. I'm pretty much condemned to failing it. Stupid school. First, they let us end late, then they say that I have to stay back for 1.5 hours for CLB, then they expect everyone to get silver for NAPFA, then they start punishing the boys if the teachers don't like their attitude, then they go on to torture the fat people by making them come back on Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays for extra training. Hello YJ! I have PE everyday now expect on Monday! Humph. I'm pissed that I have to study so hard, I'm pissed that I'm overweight, I'm pissed that I have to enter NS early and not be able to do an internship and other nonsense that I want to do after A levels are over, I'm pissed that I'm not a genius, I'm pissed that I'm not doing well in school, I'm pissed that my personality is so bleah, I'm pissed that I give myself so much stress, and most of all, I'm pissed that I've brought all of this to myself. Everything would have been much better if I wasn't so stupid when I was young. So many people have it so much easier than me. I wish I were them, then I will not need to deal with these trivial, stupid and nonsensical problems.

Life sucks at J2. Dammit.