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2010-10-31T20:09:00.001+08:00

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Bad days

2010-10-13T23:56:00.001+08:00

I realized that I haven't blogged in ages. Anyway I feel terrible. It's been such a hectic week chasing after people for work they owe me. I've been having bad days on a regular basis for the past few weeks and I just can't help but wonder why. Did I do something wrong? Is god punishing me? I hope not! I've been slipping up so much at work that it's beginning to affect my confidence. I feel so embarrassed when something goes wrong and is my fault. I feel like a letdown. Sigh. Hopefully there will be better days to come. 50 more days till the end of my service. I can survive that. I must persevere!

New Toys!

2010-03-25T20:11:00.010+08:00

A few moments ago, I was sitting in my room looking around when I had a sudden realisation. Over the past few months, I've been buying and accumulating quite a number of gadgets and electronics! I think I have a new found interest in them. I keep reading reviews and I want to buy so many! If only I had the money, ah well. Anyway, here are a few new stuff that I bought and I love playing with them.

First off, we have the classic iPod touch which I have began to depend on heavily for my music and entertainment. The part I love best about the iPod Touch is it's ability to access the internet! No longer do I need to turn on the computer to use it. Yipee! I bought my 8GB iPod Touch for $308 during the Comex Fair in 2009, last year.

Next, we have my new speaker system! Finally I have speakers that are able to play tracks at their higest quality. It's an Altec Lansing VS2421 that I bought at Comex last year too. The best part is that I got it at a steal. Only $69!!! It's original price was $89 but since all of them were sold out by the time I decided to buy it, the sales person offered me the display set. Even though, it had a dent at the side, I'm not complaining! it still looks brand new and plays awesome quality music.

Thirdly, we have my favourite product, my new laptop, the HP Pavilion DM3-1023TX. It comes with Windows 7 Home Premium, an Intel Core Duo Processor at 2.26GHz, an Nvidia GeForce G 105M 512MB DDR3-800 VRAM, 4GB Ram and a 500GB HDD. I bought this at Harvey Norman in January for $1599. It's sleek, slim, shiny, had a Mac-style keyboard and best of all, is fingerprint and scratch-proof! From now on, I shall get notebooks that have metal, and only metal casings. The battery life's great, I've spent over 4 hours on this baby before and it still has juice left! I love love love it. The only thing I regret is buying it so early. I knew I should have waited until the PC Show to get it! It was selling at only $1299 with 100 free songs! :(

I did get a few freebies though so I guess that kind of makes up for the $300 lost but not a lot. I did like the freebies though. I got a Genius notebook cooling fan the NB 100 which I think is great. It's small, portable and quiet. It also doesn't have those irritating lights that you see on those cheapo transparent cooling fans.
On top of that, I got a Sensonic Glaser Mouse G30.

A Toshiba 4GB Thumb Drive

A pair of Sensonic S22+ speakers which are...ok I guess, though I hardly use it, a set of crappy Sensonic Headphones, and of course, a complimentary HP laptop bag.
In the period between the buying of my laptop and the PC Show, I couldn't resist buying something so I decided to spend money on a portable USB wireless N adapter, a D-Link DWA-130 for my PC which is not connected to the internet. It costs me $37 in Harvey Norman so I guess that's quite ok. And then the PC Show came, so I went to buy more stuff! It's about time I bought a new camera so I decided to look for good deals. I ended up buying a Canon Ixus 120 IS for $439 which in my opinion, looks great and takes excellent pictures. Black was sold out so I had to settle for second best, Brown. I wanted to get the Canon S90 though but it was way out of my family's budget, at over $700 so we had to settle for something more affordable. Either way, I'm happy I've got a new camera. I look forward to take loads of good quality pics when I'm in Shanghai at the end of this week.

The camera came with an extra battery, an extra Pen Drive 8GB memory card, free casing, a cool laptop bag and a huge calculator that has minimalist look. Feels great to touch, perfect for my mother!
Last but not least, I also got myself a new Imation Venus 320GB Hard Disk Drive at the PC Show. It was selling at a good price too, $79 down from $89 on the 2nd last day of the fair.

As you can probably tell, I'm very satisfied with my new toys! I'm pleased they have good reviews too! :D

Will 2010 be a good year?

2010-01-01T03:53:00.003+08:00

So I'm in my bed unable to sleep due to my usual worries and thinking, "wow 2009 is finally over." THANK GOD! I have officially declared it the worst year of my life in my 19 years of existence. So much drama and conflict. I hated it. Then again I found who your true friends are, how much they care about you and the comfort they can give you when you are down in the dumps. Seriously, like the "oh my god I'm so depressed, I want to kill myself" kind of dumps. I've become much closer with my friends, family and God. For that, there were at least a few happy moments in 2009. On a side note, I also got to meet and unfortunately experience the craziest, most horrible, ignorant, irritating, uncaring and corrupted (in mind, soul and just about everything else) people there could possibly be around. I used to think people are nice in general. That view is gone now.

I hope 2010 will be a good year. A lot of people say that they have a feeling it will be. I have my doubts though. It mostly revolves around my military life. I'm worried sick and I'm losing sleep over it. Ugh. What one of my good friends said is true, the army really is a parallel world.

I went for the countdown by myself again as usual. I didn't really that the 'nice' feeling this year but whatever. I'm quite pissed by the way the police handled the crowd though. It took me an hour just to get from the Esplanade Bridge to Raffles Place MRT, with much shuffing. I came to the conclusion that Singapore would be great if it weren't for the Singaporeans. Ironic huh? I'm becoming a more bleak and pessimistic person by the day. It's probably because I'm dealing with more unpleasant people by the day. At work, outside, you can't escape them. I get frustrated with the slightest thing now. Complain complain complain...I'm like a typical Singaporean now! Whatever man, I'm just going to try to enjoy the last bits of my wondeful 1 month break before plunging back into the bleak, real world on Jan 4. Sigh.

The Swiss are racist!

2009-11-30T23:50:00.002+08:00

My suspicions have been confirmed! The Swiss are indeed racist! I always felt that they were. I had a wonderful holiday in Switzerland but one thing that kept on bugging me was the seemingly unfriendly nature of the Swiss. Maybe it's just me? I don't know. They didn't come across as a very friendly and welcoming bunch of people, compared to London and Paris where I felt very welcomed. I suppose it's because of the homogeneous make up of the country. I hardly saw anyone who were Asian, Black, Latino and so on. It was White all the way. I remember coming accross a few people especially train conductors who always seemed to give us an unhappy or unfriendly look when checking our tickets. This despite me smiling when handing over them. Oddly enough, when the conductor goes over to the white person sitting on the other side of the train, he can be so friendly and polite, smiling all the way. Implicit racism? I'd say so. On top of that, if you want to be a citizen of Switzerland, you'll need to get approval from the community in which you'll be living in. I've read stories about how people who are of other races being rejected because of their colour. Apparently, Muslims and people from the Balkans and Africa are the most likely to be rejected and now they've succeeded in banning the building of minarets at mosques, claiming that it would "encourage Islamic extremism." Quite strange if I may say so. How can towers encourage people to be extremist? It seems to be more of an excuse than a justifiable reason. Fremdenfeindlicher Schweizer? I say Ja!

I can't stop this feeling I've got

2009-11-22T22:56:00.002+08:00

I don't know how to describe. I feel like my happiness is going away and my sadness is coming back with each passing. Not a day passes without me having a "down" moment. I try to shrug off my "unhealthy thoughts" but they always come back to me eventually. It's tiring. I hate uncertainty. The outside world can be a very scary place. Why must life be so complicated when I want it to be simple? Control control control! I need control in my life!

On a side note, I've moved back to Bishan. The renovations are like 95% done. Just need to make some final touches and decoration before I put up pics! Thank God it's done. The house like an oasis of calm for me. Mmmmm warm and fuzzy; familiar feeling.

I've moved!

2009-10-03T12:46:00.006+08:00

In case you don't you, I've moved to an old 2-room condo in Clementi temporarily. My house is being fully renovated. About time; I've been living in the same house all my life and I'm so excited about the new house! I'm going to make my room super nice haha. It'll have cove lighting, the wardrobe will have lights when you open the door, bedside table with a lamp like those in hotels, an LCD TV (I hope) right infront of my bed and a study that stretches the length of the window. Pics are below! My house is like a disaster zone now. They've just finished hacking and it looks like Srebrenisa or Sarajevo during the Bosnian War. Penny said it looked like someone broght a machine gun into my house and trigger happied lol.

The Old House - Living & Dining Room

During Renovation - Master Bedroom
During Renovation - Living Room & Balcony
My favourite pic - Kitchen!

During Renovation - Bedroom
New Kitchen
New Common Toilet - Not this colour scheme
My Room!
Sister's Room

Spare Room

New Master Bedroom
New Master Toilet

New Master Toilet

New Living Room

I love my new house!

Not to forget......

I almost died packing and moving. The car was stuffed!

Reflections

2009-08-30T14:45:00.002+08:00

I never thought this time would come. I'm already moving into my 10th month of National Service and I must say, it has been an eventful year. Lots of drama and happenings. Don't think I'd want to go back and revisit it again. I like the current status quo and I wish to keep it. I am happy with it. Hmm...a few reflections of the past 9 months.

1.) I feel better now. No more panic attacks, much less anxiety and depression. Good progress I think. I'm no longer suicidal and I'm think I'm more happy now than I've ever been. I feel happy on most days now.

2.) I'm more assertive now. I stand up for my rights and views which I dont think I would have a year back. I'm sick and tired of letting people put me down or scold me for nothing. I'd speak out instead of keeping quiet. And I must admit, it does feel good. I don't need to keep everything inside now.

3.) Closer friendships. I've become much closer with my friends. They've helped me through the initial months and I must thank them for all their support and encouragement. I don't know what would have happened to me if it weren't for them. They are great company and help me take my mind off many things. I love their quirks too haha very amusing. A big thank you to all my good friends! I'm sure you know who you are. ;)

4.) I'm more optimistic and positive. Big change I think. I've learnt to see the brighter side of things now. I have no idea how i've managed to become more optimistic. I dont really care about being the top or having everything now. I've also come to realise that I'm actually a very fortunate person. I have a lot of things going for me. Good, stable and loving family and friends, a secure place in NUS and USP, bright future according to the fortune teller in Hong Kong lol, good health, no big problems, good counsellor, good collegues and working environment and good superiors. Yeah, I am lucky.

5.) More religious. Complete turnaround but I really believe God exisits now. I'm no longer agnostic and happy to be Catholic. >.< I've had many epithanies in my initial months. Being more religious seemed to have helped me through and I think I'm happier now. I pray often and I think someone really is out there to watch over me. I thank God for everything. He has touched me! Yipee!

Yeah...I think I'm more happy now than I have ever been. My counsellor has thought me many things. I've managed to deal with my sources of stress which range from friends to work to family, etc either by dealing with them, being more assertive or not caring at all and as a result I'm living a relatively stress free life now. I hope the status quo continues or gets better. I'm happy with the way things are. I've changed a bit but I think they're good changes. :)

Tan Kah Kee? Don't make me laugh.

2009-06-22T21:29:00.004+08:00

I was completely pissed when I read an article in The Straits Times saying that one of the Downtown Line stations located outside Hwa Chong Instituion will be named Tan Kah Kee, a prominent figure in HCI. Not only is it an ugly name, it is not practical and highly biased to name a station after someone who has a special place in an elite school! Ugh. I hope the LTA takes my feedback seriously. I can't imagine having more MRT station names being named after people, rather than location. To show my displeasure, I wrote to the LTA.

I am writing to express my displeasure towards the naming of the station located outside Hwa Chong Institution and would like to urge the LTA to reconsider the name. While the name Tan Kah Kee does have a significant meaning for the institution, the name chosen is not practical and highly biased. Although it is true that the station is located right outside the insitution, the station will also be used by other schools nearby such as Nanyang Girls High School and National Junior College as well. Naming the station Tan Ah Kee signifies a preference towards HCI and will be unfair to the other schools. The fact that HCI lobbied its students to suggest Tan Kah Kee as a name for the station further shows that the LTA is being influenced by the school and not by the public in general. Hence, it is indirectly showing a particular preference as well as elitism which displeases Singaporeans like me who did not attend the school. Why should this station be named after someone who had an affiliation with a particular institution when there are so many other alternative names? The LTA might also come across as displaying double standards as many stations located outside schools have not been named after these institutions or with names relating to their history. Examples include Dover station located outside Singapore Polytechnic, Marymount station located outside Raffles Junior College and Insitution, Bartley station located nearby Maris Stellah High School and many others.

Naming stations after people will open the floodgates as schools will start campaigning for names significant to their history to be chosen for stations whenever a new one is constructed near or outside their school. I, and many other Singaporeans personally prefer current naming conventions that reflect location. The LTA should strictly follow it to show impartiality. The LTA should also take note of the fact that many residences live in the area the station is serving and consider their opinions. Most would not have have attended the school and thus, would not be able to identify with Tan Kah Kee. Naming the station Duchess or Watten would however enable these residents to identify with the station name.

On top of that, naming the station Tan Kah Kee does not show practicality. As I mentioned ealier, many SIngaporeans are not aware of who Tan Kah Kee is, let alone him being a prominent figure in HCI. Many commuters will not know location of the station which may lead to confusion. Prague's metro faced such a situation before 1990 when stations were named after Communist ideology, not location. Hence, I would strongly urge the LTA to reconsider the name Tan Kah Kee. It is impractical and biased.

Beware of envy - the deadlist sin

2009-06-06T19:41:00.007+08:00

Losing a friend is painful, but losing a friend because he/she is jealous of you is excruciating.

Money isn't the root of all evil, envy is. It destroys everything and unleashes the destructive side of men. It's the deadliest sin out of the 7 deadly sin. Beware of people who commit them habitually; they mean trouble.

So much for the value of friendship above everything else. Pfft. No wonder I hate the human race sometimes.

I am happy!

2009-06-01T17:00:00.001+08:00

Yipee! I'm finall posting a happy post in like forever lol. Two piece good news. Firstly, I got an offer from both NUS and SMU. Secondly, I got into the University Scholars Programme at NUS!!! That's like awesome awesome. I can't believe it. Me, being selected to be one of the 130 people at SMU's SOSS and USP's 180? How amazing is that? I am so lucky and thankful to the guy up there for helping me. I can't wait to get out of NS and go to NUS. :D

I hate my life

2009-04-15T20:50:00.001+08:00

It's true, I hate it. It's a very sad one. I've come to realise that my mood is either normal, or sad. Happiness is a rarity and a luxury now. Pfft.

2009-03-23T20:52:00.002+08:00

All people are meant to die in the end; it's just a matter of time...but I think some people are meant to die much ealier than they are supposed to, like really really early. It's either that or I end up killing them with great enthusiasm.

2009-03-16T22:48:00.002+08:00

I hate my life. I know it's not as bad as others and people tell me that I'm very fortunate but I still hate it. I hate everything I'm doing right now. My "default mood" is always sad now. Happiness is short-lived for me right now. It only lasts for a few hours max. Then I spiral down back to sad mode. The meds are working but I feel that it only lessens the pain. There is so much uncertainty and the real world is so scary. Ugh.

2009-02-15T20:59:00.001+08:00

Oh my god. Another week of morning sickness, afternoon anxiety and depressed nights with no breaks in between. I'm so going to suffer. Die die die. I wish time would move much faster now.

I feel nauseous

2009-02-01T20:36:00.002+08:00

My mind thinks I don't know why but my subconscience knows I do. It's the fact that I have go back tomorrow...again. One full and long day - the thought of it makes me feel nauseous. I know I think too much but I can't help it. I can't stop thinking or relax for that matter. I don't think the drugs are working effectively. My anxiety still exists in the morning and gets worse as the day progresses as the effects of the drug starts to wear off. I need to get out, I really do. I cannot stand being in that place. It's too stresful for me to handle. I feel tired all the time but I sleep in the office and this gives me even more stress. I realise that my greatest enemy now is time. It moves too slowly when you are in pain and moves too fast when you're having the time of your life.

I've noticed behavioural changes since I started taking my medication. I've become more aggressive and irritable. I get annoyed very easily now and my anger builds up like crazy if a person speaks in a tone I hate like when they're scolding me or whatever. Usually I'd be able to tolerate such things but now I get so angry that I want to punch them. I also get this 'high' feeling at night after taking my night medication. Seriously, I become loose and go around saying random things and making random noises when I talk to people. Ugh, it feels like I'm going to go crazy soon.

Anyway, Chinese New Year was rather fun. I spoke to relatives that I have never spoken to in years and it was rather nice. This year's ang bao collection was a record so I'm happy lol. I also got a chance to visit my cousin's place which is huge! Omg the house is so nice and they even have a pool in the garden! I shall post pics up soon. I've realised that I've also been going out with my close friends a lot too. People like Yun Lin, Joanna, Sarah and Nora. It's always nice to have their company and like what I said in the last post, they keep me happy and help me take my mind off things. Thanks friends!

That's all for now. I feel better after blogging. Maybe I should do it more often. Anyway till next time, bye!

Midlife crisis at 18

2009-01-24T14:19:00.011+08:00

I agree with what Parmes said. I am having a midlife crisis at 18. I'm down and depressed and my life looks like there is no direction. It's like I have no purpose anymore. In JC it was to study for A Levels and now in NS, I have no goals to aim for and nothing forward to look towards. It all seems so bleak.

A lot of things have happened for the past 2 months or so. It's been very hectic and confusing so much so I think I'm going to go crazy soon. I've been tranferring in and out of places as well as hospitals. It seems like I've been falling ill like crazy ever since I enlisted; it must be the obscenely high levels stress. Maybe I'm just not cut out for national service. I'm too soft of a person to be able to handle all the agression and military life. I'm the kind of person that is not able to scream and shout loudly.

But anyway at least I've been given some form of help. I've been given lots of drugs (anti-depressants to be exact) to control my depression as well as anxiety. They will last me for 3 months. I've been diagnosed with Anxiety Disorder as well as Depression apparently. The two come together in tandem which sucks. It was kind of unexpected. I knew I've always been an anxious person and my good friends have said that I worry too much about every little thing. I thought it was a normal thing until I came about to know about this condition.

Sigh. Everyday is a pain. One day feels like two and just when I thought that I managed to survive a day of horror and despair, I wake up again to realise that I have to go through the entire thing all over again for another day until the week has ended. I'm terrified of going back to camp. It makes me really anxious and so far I get panic attacks each time I'm there. I feel like I'm going crazy all the time and my heart pounds as if it's going to jump out throughout the entire day. And of course I feel like crap. I can't relax at home and I cry rather often now. Silly me.

I really don't know what to expect in the time to come. I'm so afraid of the future. Everything is so unpredictable now and the uncertainty worries me a lot. But thankfully I have the full support of my family and friends. They've been so encouraging; my father especially. I've become much closer to him and we talk more now than we ever did in say years I suppose. Maybe this incident is a good thing. I can't forget my very good friends of course like Nora, Joanna, Amelia, Yun Lin and Sarah. They've been so kind to keep me company whenever I'm alone. They're just really good people with very kind hearts. I really enjoy their company and they help me take my mind off things. Thank you very much friends! You guys are great! I know I'm really fortunate and I should really try to appreciate what I have.

I was also looking at pictures I took in Switzerland. I absolutely love that country. I'm definitely going back there. I think I would have enjoyed it more if I didn't have the prospect of having to go to NS hanging over me throughout the entire time.

That's all for now. Sigh, I wish I was still in Switzerland. <3

NS

2008-12-03T07:33:00.002+08:00

Omg today is enlistment and I'm bloody nervous about it. I hope it all goes well. I'm going go crazy on the first few days. I just know it. I can't take these sort of things. Wish me luck! I won't be around for weeks. Hopefully, I'd be able to get out for the Hari Raya Haji holiday. Bye!

I screwed up A levels

2008-11-14T11:56:00.003+08:00

I can't believe this. I'm doing all the wrong things at the wrong time and at the wrong paper. I'm so screwed. I can't get my AAA anymore. Econs was the wrose. I dont even think I can pass considering the amount of shit I wrote for all the questions. I didnt even manage to finish question 5! I wrote so much crap for that question. Im screwed to the max for that one. I didnt manage to finish paper 1 too! To make it worse, I didnt study the topics that came out AND I did not have much to write for the questions that gave lots of makrs.

And then there's History, bloody irritating History. It's suppose to be my best subject but I screwed it up too! It can't get any worse than that yeah? I wrote so little for the Southeast Asian paper and I didnt finish the International History one. You know what's worse? I used the wrong terms! I said that one of the reasons for the success of the Japanese eocnomy was because of the overvalued Yen when it's supposed to be the undervalued Yen! Die already! I think I can only get a B at most. I'm so disappointed with myself. I might as well go kill myself if I'm not able to do my CSE paper. Why are the papers this year so hard and deceptive! Why! Why! Why!

The best part is that I'm beginning to have doubts over if I can get my A for GP. On top of that, I think the best paper I've done so far is Maths. How ironic is that? I know I can definitely pass it this time. All my hopes and dreams of studying in the UK in a good university has been crushed. I've planned out my entire future and now it's crumbling down right in front of me because of A levels. I can imagine the reuslts I'd be getting. Assuming that I do well for CSE, it'll be ABC/D/E. A for CSE, B for History and C/D/E for Econs. As for H1, it'll be B for GP and E or D for maths. Just fab. Fantasticly fab. I'm so disappointed and angry with myself. I shall go to one side and sulk and maybe cry now.

I dread A Levels

2008-10-12T01:03:00.002+08:00

Sighhhh the stress is pilling on with each passing day. I haven't been able to stick with my schedule and as a result, I'm wayyyy behind in my revision especially for Maths. I haven't done a single thing in days. I feel very ughhh. And you know what? I hate living in Singapore. It's a nation of muggers. I went to Woodlands library with Penny today to meet her maths teacher and practice maths. I got there just in time to see the gates open but to my horror, there was a hugeeeeeee crowd of people, the majority of which are muggers from secondary schools, JCs and Polys. Once the gate opened, people ran in and swarmed the entire place. I swear to God they were treating it like it was a sale or something. Lamers. By the time I managed to get in, all the tables were snapped up. I felt very pissed after that and cursed all the way to Causeway Point. Penny and I ended up in Burger King to do Maths. I hate living in a mugger society. It forces me to be a mugger as well. If I could, I'd strangle all the people there. Why can't they go back to school or stay at home?! *&!&(*#^!_)#&^%*(!#@$ Whatever, I'm going to binge on something now. I can't take the stress. Somebody saveeeee meeeeee before I go gilaaaaaaa.

Dieded

2008-09-29T16:58:00.000+08:00

Die die die die die die die die!

Yipee 2

2008-09-01T14:34:00.004+08:00

I thought of more catchphrases. >.<

Joanna:
Macham like *insert phrase*
I then dowan!
rawr.

Xuyun:
Boom chick boom chick!
GG.
Dog.
Eh balls!

Yun Lin:
Lame.
Good! *give thumbs up*
I need to pee but im too lazyyyy *laughs*
Today is a nice day!
I wannnnnnnnt!
Stop copyingggg me!
Can you not say such things?! I'm eating here you know!
I just lost my appetite.

That feeling...

2008-08-30T15:05:00.006+08:00

Have you ever had the feeling that you're worth nothing when you're not the top? It completely sucks. You get the feeling that you're not the best and thus, would be denied the opportunity to do the things you want in our meritocratic system. Not being the best just makes you "average" and nothing else. You don't feel special, you don't feel good, you feel worthless and you know very well that others will have an added advantage over you. This directly translates into stronger/more competition for places for internships, scholarships, universities places and jobs. The very worse part is that you know you can do well and reach the top. Your goals are so near and yet so far. You're so close to reaching it but yet you can't. You know you can get the prestige and recognition but you can't get it. It's mentally and emotionally frustrating. I feel like that. I know that I can never get an internship during the holidays...not that I'll even get the opportunity to apply for one in the first place. I absolutely hate it. I'm very disappointed with myself. Life sucks.

The End Is Here

2008-08-26T00:30:00.002+08:00

End of prelims that is! I'm so relieved. I think I'll do ok for prelims...at least I hope so. Anyway 2 weeks of pain is finally over. And now, I shall take a day or two for much needed rest and relaxation before I start my....mugging....again. How lame and boring.

Went to Botak Jones with Nana, Aaron and Jiu Xiang the other day. I think I've found the perfect place for western food. I couldn't finish my Fish and Chips for the first time in a very long time. I shall go there more often. The food is awesome and the prices are decent. Totally value for money. Went back on Sunday morning only to find it closed!!!! Grrrr.

Anyway my family wants to go on holiday and I'm looking forward to that, quite excited actually. We're planning either go to Switzerland and Italy or Japan for a long holiday before I enter NS. I've been planing everything and I think going back to Europe again will be so fun! I love it! Now what I need is just the letter informing of my enlistment date. Once that is settled, we'll be booking everything at once! It's so annoying that I have until October to receive the letter though. They only giv eit out 2 months before enlistment and since fat people enlist in early December, I should be getting my letter in early October...hopefully.

Singapore's public transportation sucks

2008-08-24T22:44:00.004+08:00

I was watching the news and saw that the government is asking the public to give suggestions to make Singapore and liveable and sustainable place to live in. I'm annoyed with the current public transportation system, so, I decided to give them my two cents worth of ideas and feedback.

"I think the government is not putting enough focus, emphasis and attention to public transportation. The measure implemented so far are merely firefighting strategies to cope with increasing vehicular traffic and congestion. People are unwilling to take public transportation because it's inconvenient and uncomfortable for them in the first place. The government needs to find ways to make public tranport commuting more comfortable and efficient. For example, many people incluing me, feel that trains are too packed even during non-peak hours. Despite attempts to increase train frequencies, the trains are still crowded, making a journey very uncomfortable especially those that have to endure long commutes. In order to solve this, I propose that the transport ministry consider express commuter trains such as the RER in Paris. Trains should stop only at stations that have high commuter traffic. By doing so the crowded situation in trains would be lessened and travel times will be slashed, further enouraging Singaporenas to use the MRT as a viable substitute. I would also suggest the speeding up of the bulding of the new MRT lines. This would also help tackle the overcrowding as people will have more lines to choose from when travelling from one place to another.

On the issue of encouraging cycling, Singaporeans will not want to cycle to MRT stations or between towns if the government doesn't provide bicycles in the first place. It would simply be too much of a hassle for them to buy their bicycles, carry them all the way down from their flats and find parking spaces to park their bikes. On top of that, they would also have to return to the same area to collect their bikes. This would be highly inconvenient for those that only intend to use bicycles one-way. My suggestion on how the government could encourage the use of bicycles is to PROVIDE them in the first place. Again, Singapore can learn from the Parisians. They have a very extensive bicycle renting scheme that is hassle-free and effective. Singapore should employ such a system as well. I believe it would be feasible since we already have the infrastructure to support the use of bikes. I think most Singaporeans are responsible enough to return the bikes once they reach their destination. It saves them the hassle of having to bring their bikes home too should they use another form of transportation to return home. I know I would use the bikes if the system was to be implemented here. I strongly suggest that the government look into this option."

The MRT is crowded and the buses are slow, noisy, packed, run-down and inefficient. If I were rich, I'd be driving a car too. We're a developed country and yet, we still lack a good and efficient public transportation network. We should aim to have public transport that is of the standards of London, Paris, New York, Tokyo and so on.

Snail Mail...Literally

2008-08-23T00:53:00.002+08:00

I was at the Esplanade library a few days back reading TIME when I came across this article about realsnailmail.net. It's this project by Bournemouth University that uses actual snails to deilver messages. What they did was to attach some chip on the snail's shell and once you typed your message down and send it, the message goes into the chip in which the snail travels along until it reaches another area where there is a receiver in which the message is then delivered to the receivee's email. Thought I'd give it a try and see how long it'll take to send a message. TIME said that it depends on the snail. Some messages can be delivered in a week, some in a month and even a year for some rare cases. Let's see how long mine will take! The snails are quite cute. They have codenames like 001, 002, 003...008 and so on imprinted on their shells. Have a look for yourself. http://realsnailmail.cfdeveloper.co.uk/profiles.cfm

Palm Reading

2008-08-21T12:17:00.005+08:00

A few weeks back, my class became obsessed about palm reading and astrology and all that during GP lesson. Mrs Guna was also joining in the fun hahaha. In fact, we were so fascinated by it that we talked about it throughout the entire period lol. So anyway I was so fascinated that I went back home and looked it up the internet. Coincidentally, I found this Indian guy who lives in New Delhi and offers free palm reading sessions over the internet! All you need is just a scanner. I was bored so I went to scan my hands and sent the pictures to him.

Stop admiring. I know I have very sexy hands. Anyway, this is his reply:

"the palm print quality is real bad i mean lines and sin pattern not visible but generally the palm is good.
your nails are small, it indicates certain tendencies towards heart related issues. the heart line in ur left palm is broken which indicates problem related to heart but the very good fine line in ur right hand indicates that you have over come your problem because of your good lifestyle.
the nails show u to be impulsive yet your life and head line joined otgether show you to be aperson who is cautious in his appraoch and loose opportunitiies.
but the size of ur palm is good and it indicates that you will be able to paly with life.
it means you will handle people and things around you in good way
regards
manish"

Ok so I know that I will have a good lifestyle. Yipee! I can play with life too! I shall be a playboy. ;) So what Parmes predicted in Germany was right! hahaha she is goooood. I shall consuslt her more often.

Ausfahrt

2008-08-18T20:55:00.002+08:00

So I am ausfahring here and thinking why was the International History paper so hard! I'm very disappointed in myself. I could only answer 1 of the 5 questions. I crapped for the other one which is still not bad since i studied but the last one was the biatch. I didn't even write the third essay. It only had an introduction and part of the first paragraph! Not that I would have written an essay if I had the extra time anyway. Whatever I studied for did not come out. I'm so bleah. Anyway my back hurst like shit. I can barely walk properly sometimes. I'd need to see a doctor if it continues on. This is so ausfahrt.

Yipee!

2008-08-17T01:59:00.005+08:00

Whoot! So many events have been happening recently. The worst part is that they all happen during the period that is th emost crucial before A Levels...prelims! It can't get any worse if you have prelims and Olympics going on at the same time. It's practically impossible to study when you're always tempted with Olympic action which mind you, is very very very very very exciting and interetsing to watch. I didn't know I could enjoy it until now lol. Yipee!

So prelims are ok I guess. Can't really complain. I think I screwed up the GP paper but the rest should be ok...I think. I don't want to think about it now actually. Anyway I decided to amuse myself with a compliation of commonly used phrases by some famous people.

Yun Lin:
Yipee!
Whee!
Today...is a happy day!
Hi friend!
I'm hungryyyy.
Deng-den *sound*!

Penny:
Coolios!
Whoa!
Like tons cool can annot!?

Aaron:
Ello
Three GEOORRGES Dam

Nana:
Nehneh you
You dun come and...
Waaaaaassste my time!
I is very happy!
Guten tag

Xuyun:
Hey bitch!
So seksi!
So nice/cute lah!
.com
Boycott
Boom boom boom!
*some Spanish muttering*
*some indescribable scream*

Jaime:
Neh-neh lah
Oh my god lah
That shithead
Oh myyy!
No!!!!

Nora:
How much did you get!?!?!?! *points finger at you*
Want to share?
All because of MEEEEEEEEE!
That stupid *insert name here* arh

Sarah:
Hi rubs!
You are so Taurus...just like my sister!

hahaha I love you all!

When I get to Warwick Avenue...

2008-08-05T09:57:00.005+08:00

When I get to Warwick Avenue

meet me by the entrance of the tube

we can talk things over a little time

but promise me you won't stay by the light

When I get to Warwick Avenue

please drop the past and be true

don't think we're okay just because I'm here

you hurt me bad but I won't shed a tear

I'm leaving you for the last time baby

you think you're loving but you don't love me

and I've been confused outta’ my mind lately

you think you're loving but I want to be free

Baby you hurt me...

100 Days

2008-07-23T00:01:00.000+08:00

Priceless moment

omg 100 days left!

Rawr

2008-07-19T14:11:00.004+08:00

I don't understand how some selections take place. It seems like the most underserving people get stuff that other, more deserving, people should get. It's really unfair. Curse elitism. No wonder communism was so attractive.

Nehnehness

2008-07-18T22:37:00.003+08:00

So this is what I'll have to deal with....

Over the weekend:
1.) 3 AQs
2.) An Economics case study and extra essays
3.) CSE Independent Study draft that is all over tha place
4.) Study the entire syllabus for a Mathematics mock exam
5.) History SBQ

In the upcoming months:
1.) Endless comprehension practices for GP
2.) Endless case studies for Economics
3.) Endless SBQs for History
4.) Endless essay outlines and SBQs for CSE
5.) Endless practice of Maths
6.) CSE IS
7.) Afternoon Study Programme till 5pm on 3 days
8.) Useless and redundant CLB lessons
9.) Prelims
10.) Stress
11.) Growing fatness
12.) A Levels

Mug mug mug...Im going to burn out soon. Just fab.

Exam woes

2008-07-10T23:49:00.005+08:00

"Oh almighty Cambridge, please bestow us with us with your of kindness and grant us the opportunity to do extremely easy A Level papers with very linient marking...especially for Economics."

So I've gotten back most of my Block Test 3 results....and they are very very disappointing. It's so bad that I think it's even worst that the J1 Block Test.

H2 History: 65/100 (B)

H2 China Studies in English: 60/100 (C)

H2 Economics: 39/100 (U)

H1 Mathematics: 8/100 (U)

H1 General Paper: Predicted U, S or E

CLB: 53 (Pass)

What a complete failure! I've never failed GP before and I'm very worried about Economics. It seems that the higest grade I've ever gotten for that subject is a D which is hardly impressive. I need and want to get AAA. I'm increasingly worried about my CSE too; haven't been doing well especially for SBQ at all. Only a month to Prelims and 4 months to A Levels. I need to do well for Prelims to see what my standard is. I still have my independent study to do and I have not even started on it. *sigh* I need to buck up...fast. What to do!? What to do!!?? What to do!!!??? *sobs*

Blackjack just got cooler

2008-06-26T20:05:00.005+08:00

I've completely screwed up block tests 3. I hope I'll be able to do ok but I doubt so especially for Economics. I think I'll fail that one as well as Maths and perhaps scrape through for China Studies and get D for History. I shall start studying everyday once the results are out. I can't believe A Levels are only like 20 weeks away.

Anyway, went to watch a movie at Vivocity with Penny today. It's called 21 and to my wonderful surprise, it's a really good movie. I thought it'd be some Ocean's 11 thing but it's much better. My $8.50 was worth it! Hahahahaha. This show is about some guy called Ben who is this ultra smart guy who wants to get into Harvard Medical School but couldn't afford the $300,000 school fee + living cost. So what he did was that he and a few others gathered together with a teacher to master the game Blackjack. Apparently, there's a way to make lots of money without doing anything illegal. It's called counting and it involves probability and simple Mathematics. The group heads to Las Vegas, which in the movie appeard so glam, to earn big money through a series of signals to tell Ben what to do. In the end, a lot of drama happened and I'm just too lazy to type it all out lol. Just go watch it, it's great. I'm going to get the DVD! The show makes me want to do counting lol. Penny and I were discussing that once the casinos in Singapore open, we'd go there and try it lol. The game of Blackjack just got much more interesting!

A few of us are planning to go on a holiday once our A Levels are over too. There's about 5 to 6 people who are interested and currently, we're deciding over Hawaii, Australia, Korea, Japan or Taiwan. We're trying to keep a lookout for good deals since we're setting a budget to about $1500 per person. We're also planning to leave on the 22nd, 2 days after my last paper finish because I'll most probably have to go for NS in the 1st or 2nd week or June judging from the period the overweight people entered NS last year. Looking forward to the holiday a lot.

20 random facts

2008-06-16T21:00:00.002+08:00

Write 20 random facts about yourself then tag the same amount of people as minutes it takes you to write the facts.

1.) I'm can quite an opinionated person.
2.) I want a major European Studies at NUS if I'm unable to go to the UK.
3.) I'm very glad I transferred from CJC to YJC.
4.) I want a pet dog....a Golden Retriver.
5.) I need to lose weight and grow taller.....seriously.
6.) I'm tanned enough to be called a latino.
7.) I want a BMW.
8.) Parmes predicted that I'll have 2 kids, become very wealthy, have a very supportive partner but a very short life.
9.) I'm a very shy person.
10.) I like people who have a strong character.
11.) I don't like the taste of alcohol...I know, a very big shame!
12.) I dislike maths, sciences, philosophy and literature.
13.) I'm not made for Singapore weather.
14.) My favourite place outside Singapore is London.
15.) I want either an apartment in the Orchard Road are or a big house in one of the glam downtown districts.
16.) I regret not studying hard for PSLE.
17.) I like spending time with myself sometimes.
18.) I want to work as a diplomat with the Singapore Foreign Affairs Ministry.
19.) I am somewhat good ay reading people's body language.
20.) I loves Jonana neh neh girl many many! She tagged me first. :D

I'll be nice and won't tag anyone. :)

Germany Trip Pictures

2008-06-13T11:57:00.037+08:00

Misc. pictures taken on Parmes' camera

The goondomama eating a cherry on the bus

Hannis - The guy all the girls in the trip were going crazy over
Now here are Mmy pics! - Shopping arcade in Leipzig. I wish Singapore had these. They're so posh and nice to walk in.
Snowcapped mountains when we were flying over desserts

A castle near Neauchwanstein

View of Neauchwanstein from a bridge

Beautiful tree covered walkways
Romantic Road

We drove pass many small towns
Cathedral in the middle of a vineyard along Lake Constance
Black Forest!!!
Colourful fields!

Some beautiful town we drove pass

Lake Titisee - Nice flowers
They're so pretty that it's almost unbelievable

Lake Titisee

Our very quaint hotel in Lake Titisee - Maria von Somethingggg

Black Forest again

Freiburg

Inside Freiburg Cathedral

Friburg's Town Square

Driving to Altensteig - Black Forest

Christophorous Gymnasium - Classroom
Walkway
Mini-hall
They sang for us!

Some musical room

School building
Spielburg!!! ;)
Stuggart

Kaiser Statue

Altensteig's Castle
Ruben being chained up

That section of the castle is called "Heaven"
Altensteig! Very pretty town.

Very hilly

Nuremberg - Fort

View from the fort

The centre of Nuremberg

Ausfahrt!
Roadsign along Autobahn
More colourful fields again

Wind turbines
Berlin

Berlin Wall

East berlin's TV Tower
Checkpoint Charlie

Some Protestant Church in Museum Island

Reichstag (German Parliament)
Brandenburg Gate

The hotel Michael Jackson dangled his baby over the balcony!!!
Jewish Memorial
Checkpoint Charlie Again

Topography of Terror
Jewish Museum Exhibit
Remnants of the Berlin Wall
Quality Hotel Tegel! Very Nice and big!
Outside the hotel

Hotel Facade - Balconies
We bought lots of chocolates! A cartful inf act! And this is just a few of us!
My batch of chocolates ;)
Leipzig - St Thomas Church

Home to Bach!

Dachau Concentration Camp

Dark walkways

Brausebad - "Shower Room"

Crematorium

Nice veiw of Dachau

Dachau Castle
Me & Parmes
Dachau Castle Gardens - So beautiful

BMW Headquaters in Munich
BMW Museum
BMW Showroom

Nyphemburg Palace

Nyphemberg Palace Gardens

Nurul was obstructing the view
Munich city square - Marienplatz
New town hall - Looks old
Old Town Hall - Looks news

Statue of Juliet - Rub her boob for luck apparently. Only Nurul did that in front of everyone.

U-Bahn
Silberhornstrasse - Station that is near our hotel

Ticket machine - Irritating thing, everything is in German and there was no personnel around to help us.
They don't have faregates! Omg.
Munich U-Bahn Trains
Stoning
They have very nice interiors! Leather seats, nice lighting, not crowded at all!

The Glockenspiel - Main tower of the new town hall
Exploring Munich by ourselves - Nice place to sit outside and have some coffee

King Maximillian II Statue in front of the Opera House
Notice anything strange in this picture? *Hint: Look at the Mouth

Now look at all four! Very cheeky lol

Another Square - They have so many
Some Church
Marienplatz Again

Munich Airport - Wayyy better than Bangkok's new airport.

Which sucks.
Chocolates again!

The End

I took bloody long to upload all these pictures! And now I want to go back to Germany!

Love Vommit

2008-06-12T20:17:00.008+08:00

Chocolates.Giotto.Nutella.Lindt.Ritter Sport.Kinder.Malteasers.M&Ms.Crisps.Ruffles.Waitrose.Pringles.
Bingefest. Fish & chips. Nasi Lemak. Chicken Rice.Carrot Cake.Cookies & Cream Ice Cream.MacDonalds 60 cent cone.Chocolate Sunday.McFlurry Oreo.Subway.
Nice weather.26 degress and below.Rainy days.Cloudy days.Windy days.
Sleeping.Cuddling.Hugs.Kisses.Being spoilt.
Channel 5.BBC.BBC Entertainment.Deutsche Welle.MTV.Sky News.Newsweek.Time.British things.Internet.MSN.
London.UK.Paris.France.Altensteig.Germany.Munich.Phuket.Gold Coast.Europe.Holidays.
Singapore.Orchard.Orange Grove.Newton.Novena.Tanglin.East Coast.Mount Pleasant.Bukit Timah.Botanical Gardens.Napier.
Ikea.Takashimaya.Gucci.Kinokuniya.Starbucks.Coffee Bean.Gap.
Countryside.Sophisticated City Life.Languages.Politics.History.Current Affairs.Geography.Sociology.Music.MUN.Dogs.Golden Retrivers.Maltese.Neh neh girl.Biking.Swimming.Friends.Family.BMW.Hott people.You

Words.

Tag. You're It.

Ausfahrt from Germany, Einfahrt to Singapore

2008-06-10T07:28:00.005+08:00

I am back and I wish I'm not! Germany was so much fun! I'd stay there for a few more weeks if I could. It's wayyyyy better than the China trip last year. The weather was pleasant although sometimes a bit too hot for me, the cities are nice but the countryside is nicer. It's so beautiful! There were flowers growing all over the place and we could see fields of red, blue and yellow dotted all over. On top of that, there were also lots of cows and horses. So cute. We were taking photos of them were crazy hahaha everyone was like "OMG! COWS! *snap, snap, snap*".

On the first day, we drove out of Munich and visited the magical fairytale castle Neauchwanstein and the beautiful Lake Titisee. It's really nice. The castle is situated high up in the mountains and you can see snow at the peak which is quite near to the castle...in Summer! Lake Titisee was very serene and very pretty. Before that, we were driving through the Black Forest and the Romantic Road and the views that accompanied the travelling were so pretty. We passed through small towns, rolling hills, thick forest and even Lake Constance! We could see Switzerland and Austria from there. There's so much to see. And the hotel we stayed for the night was very quiant. It's like a typical German hotel in the countryside. Made up of wood with comfortable furnishings. It comes with a balcony too and you could sit outside and enjoy the peace and quiet with the view of the town and the Black Forest. In the morning, you could birds chirping loudy.

On the second day, we started our day in Freiburg. It's a big town with a typical German town square. There's a huge Gothic cathedral in the middle accompanied by an old town hall and a market surrounding the area. Once after, we drove our way up into the mountains to my favourite place, Altensteig! It's this little town located in the Black Forest. The journey to the town was the most spectacular journey I've ever been on. We were climbing up and down heavily forested mountains with awesome views of ranges and whatnot.

This time, we passed through many picturesque medieval villages and Altenstieg is one of them. The town's a very old one. If I remembered correctly, it dates back to the 12th century. Anyway we were there beacuse we had an exchange with the school called Christophorous Gymnasium over there. I want to go that school. They have a very nice campus and they have great views of rolling hills and of the town from their classroom window too! They don't need air conditioning beacuse there are located at the very top of the hill so it's very cooling. The school specialises in biology due to the natural surroundings of the school which is very diverse as well as singing and music. The school's chior is one of the best in Germany and they regulary go around the world to sing. And the can sing very well! They gave us like 2 impromptu singing sessions without any preparation at all! And the best part is that the students walk around school barefooted! Not surprising considering how clean the campus is and ry the toilet floors are. We spent the afternoon touring around the school. After that, we headed to Stuttgart for dinner and spent the night there.

The following day, we went back to the school and attended lessons. Me and Parmes decided to go for European History which was the topic for the English lesson since it sounded interesting. The lesson was quite an eye opener. The German students are very nice people and they are not naughty or loud as what I thought they would be. Maybe that only applies to American students which we saw a lot all over the trip. Very irritating people. The German students on the other hand kept quiet when the teacher was speaking and they're quite smart too! We were discussing about the European Union and the teacher was very fluent in English. She has a British accent in fact, very nice. And she interacted with us a lot. Asking us questions about Singapore and how we feel about Germany and such. The most interesting part was when they asked us how we felt about the Birtish. During the entire lesson, Parmes and I answered most of the questions so we said that we love them, we are veyr much like them blah, blah, blah. And the class opinions seem to point to the Germans disliking the Brits, super amusing hahaha. Finally we were asked what subject we took and Parmes said that she took History, Maths, Tamil Lit. and English Lit. and the teacher asked "wait, what was the 2nd last one?" and Parmes said "Tamil Literature" and the class including the teacher stared at her. So she went on and said "errr....I'm Indian?" and we burst into laughter. It was so funny. The bell rang and we gave a presentation to the shool about YJ and Singapore. They're coming over next year in August and many are interested. So we had lunch in their big cafeteria and they gave us lasagna! The teacher then gave us a tour of Altensteig. It so omg pretty. We visited the town's castle (a very small one), and walked downhill through the little alleyways and so on. Unfortunately, it was raning so were a little drench but couldn't be bothered. We continued walking in the light rain cos we really wanted to see more!So much so that we even drove up to a neaby hill to get an aerial view of the entire town and take pictures. It's very picturesque. If I were to come back to Germnay, I'd definitely head back to Altensteig! It's now my favourite place in the Germany!

After that part, our tour of South Germany ended and we headed for Berlin. Along the way, we stopped in Nuremberg for a short city tour and lunch. It's a nice city with a huge city square. Again, it's like your typical German town square with a big church and a market. We then headed for Berlin which I personally didnt like. The city is quite rundown with grafitti all over the place. Maybe I was too used to the greenery before. The only nice place was the Museum Island where all the majestic building are located. It kind of remineded me of London. We saw the Reichstag (The German Parliament) and many other bid buildings. We had a tour guide with us that gave us a lot of insightful information on the history of Berlin which is actually centred around the Cold War. We visited the Berlin wall, moved between East and West Berlin like crazy and visited 3 museums. The Jewish Museum, the Topography of Terror Exhibition and the Berlin Wall Museum which is beside Checkpoint Charlie. We took pics like crazy as usual. They gave us an hour to shop around at the last but it was so irritating. All the shops were closed because it was a Sunday and all Germans rest on Sunday. No wonder the roads were so empty. Lazy people. Even the supermarkets are closed on Sunday! We weren't able to stock up on water and chocs! So Parmes and I were walking around again and we were crossing the road at Checkpoint Charlie and one of the characters dressed in uniform asked if we'd like to get our passport stamped for crossing the border for 2 Euros. We said no and then he suddenly began to guess where we are from hahaha. So he started with Parmes and said "India!". She said no and he tried "Pakistan!" and no again. Then he tried me and said "China!". I was like "WHAT! I'M NOT FROM CHINAAAAAAA!" And was thinking to myself, I don't even look Chinese! So he asked us what colour our passport was and we said red and gussed finally Singapore correctly hahaha. The hotel was VERYYYYY NICE! I got a very big room that came with a calcony and a study corner! How cool is that?! And in the mornings, we'd have our breakfast outside in the cool air.

We spent like 3 days in Berlin and thereafter, it was a 6 hour bus drive down to Munich again for our final stop. Along the way, we stopped at Leipzig this time for a short city tour again. Nothing much to say for this city, it's like any other German city. Pretty, ancient and nice. Before we knew it, we were back in our final destination in the South again, Munich. Our day in Munich started not in the city but in the outskirts in the town of Dachau which had a concentration camp called the Dachau Concentration Camp. It was not what I expected. Living conditions were marginally better but the torture, humen experimentation and gassing were not a surprise. But this concentation camp is special because it was one of the first and was a model for all over camps. It had everything so we could see a bit of everything other concentration camps have. Because of this, gassing wasnt done here. Only one or two victims were gassed at a time and no one knows why they dont gas hundreds at a time in this camp. Anyway it was a sad place and Parmes felt depressed after that but she felt better after we visited the church while walking around Dachau which is very pretty. Small town with beautiful architecture and perched on top of the hill was the castle and we visited the garden which very pretty. After that, we visited the BMW showroom and went gila there! hahaha then we went t the Nyphemberg Palace which was omg so big and beautiful. we spent an hour fooling around the palace gardens and camwhored. Had an afternoon long city tour of Munich thereafter and visited Marienplatz, the cool city centre with great shopping that had a HUGE town hall in the middle. Oxymorically, the new town hall looks much nicer and much older than the old town hall which was just beside the new town hall. That's because the old one was rebuilt quite recently I think. Munich is the nicest of the German cities. On the last day, we had time to ourselves so all of us decided to take the U-Bahn train down to Marienplatz to do shopping and we shopped like crazy! We had 5 hours to ourselves so me, Haifa and Parmes went exploring whilst shopping! We went to many squares and took photos of places the guide didnt bring us to and shopped of course. I didnt buy much stuff cos nothing interest me lol. When we all met again, everyone had shopping bags except me! Grrrr now I regret not spening my money! So that was Germany for you! It's a nice country. I'd definitely be back! Pics coming soon!

I was tagged with this

2008-05-23T21:58:00.003+08:00

1] At what age do you wish to marry?
I don't know. Maybe before the age of 30?

2] What i want the most now?
A lot of things.

3] Who is the person you trust the most?
Joanna Nehneh Nancy Low.

4] Do you think you have enough confidence?
Not really.

5] If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Too private to tell . :P

6] Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yes. It's happened a few times before.

7] What are you afraid to lose the most now?
My friends and family and life...obviously.

8] Do you believe in eternal love?
Yes.

9] If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Yes, but in a very tactful way of course.

10] List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Refreshingly fun, amazingly talented, very fun to be with

11] What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Too many to list down.

12] What feeling do you hate the most?
Helplessness.

13] Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Most of them.

14] Do you feel that every minute of life and every person in your life is to be appreciated?
No, there are a lot of strange people around.

15] What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My brain.

16] Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
It would be nice to have one but it's not a need.

17] At this point of time, would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
Comfort Zone...all the way.

18] What kind of friend you hope to be in your friend's eyes?
A good and decent one.

19] Brains or looks?
Both!

20] What would you like to do right now, at this very moment?
Go for lipo.

I miss London

2008-05-03T11:12:00.007+08:00

It's probably my favourite city on earth. I felt so at home when I was there and this is very strange because I'm always uptight whenever I'm overseas for some odd reason. But in London, I felt very relaxed and could enjoy everything it has to offer. I think it's because I know a lot about London than any other city.

London has a knack of adding that magical touch. I love the mild weather, I love the parks, I love the friendly and shockingly fashionable people, I love its history and how it surrounds you everywhere you go, I love the free and impressive museums, I love the underground and last but not least, I love the Fish & Chips! :D

There's something about special about London which I can't seem to put my fingers on; other cities like Paris pales in comparison with London...although many people would like to think otherwise. Maybe it's just me and how much I like the Brits and their really cool culture. Anyway I'm thinking of studying there after A Levels and perhaps, live there for awhile as a PR or whatever. Either way, I have go back there again one day.

Jealousy

2008-05-03T10:45:00.003+08:00

I can't help but feel envious of some of the people I've met so far. How they manage to be so smart, intelligent, articulate, confident, popular, rich, good looking and so on. It makes me feel a bit insignificant and out-of-place sometimes. Wish I could be more like them.

I is on a roll!

2008-04-20T01:47:00.003+08:00

I is very very happy. I somehow managed to get whatever I've always wanted in a span of a week. Firstly, I got my first A ever for a block test then the principle made a special exception for me to go for the Germany trip. On top of that, I managed to get into the ESP programme....thanks to the principle of course. I think I should thank her and Mrs Loh a lot. Too bad Jonana couldn't go for the trip though. It would be so awesome to have her as company. *sigh*

I booked my NS medical checkup on the 18th of June. The online registration sucks like crap. You give so much money to MINDEF only to come up with a crappy online registration thingy. So neh neh. Bleah I dont look forward to NS. It's practically slavery. *prays hard that I become a clerk that is able to go home everyday*

Spoke for MIDC today as the first speaker. We were given a very idiotic motion. "This house believes that governments in the developing world should ban sex tourism". To my suprise, I spoke rather well. I was able to stay clam and composed and handled the POI by the neh neh SJI International rather well I think. Anyway YJ lost in the end and that together with 2 ealier loses means that we're out of the competition. We were orginally placed 9th and then we fell to 17th after losing to JJC. How demoralising is that! I felt that we should have won the debate with PJC and JJC though. It's so unfair. They always give us the crappy adjudicators that don't adhere to the correct way of marking. :( Oh well at least it was rather fun. The best part is that we are now free from debates! No more staying back in school everyday till 7! I definitely look forward to that. Finally I'm able to reach home in broad daylight and get some rest before I start mugging.

Today was Penny's birthday celebration too! Happy 18th Birthday Penny Anne Sunflower! We went to NYDC and I had like this really nice lasagne. I always thought that the food at NYDC is mediocre but obviously I was wrong lol. 1st May is coming up soon. I can't wait to have Ice Cream Fest #2 with Penny! We're going to have it at Island Creamery...probably one of the places that sell the best ice cream avaliable in Singapore!

I think my standard of English is getting worse by the day. I find myself to be increasingly using awkward expressions and speaking Singlish like crazy and it worries me. I'm not able to use my powerful words in my GP essays as I used to in secondary school. Not only that my rephrasing skill sucks now and I find myself using the same expressions over and over again like "On top of that", "Furthermore" blah blah blah. No wonder my language component is so lousy. Grrr it's so irritating when you know you can do well but just can't seem to. An A grade is so near but yet so far...and hard to obtain.

Mas Selamat has escaped?

2008-03-02T21:35:00.003+08:00

Wow, Im surprised that this has happened. It really highlights the complacency the Singapore government has. They think they are so good that it's ok to have to have lax security at a high security detention centre....like hello! What does the word high security mean to you? This is a huge embarassment on the part of the police and the governement. Why has he not been caught yet? Is Singapore really that big? I doubt so. If he isnt found in like a month's time, I think it can be safely said that he has ran off to Indonesia or Malaysia.

Now, what I'm really thinking is why have some people not been sacked yet? Especially the guy who is the head of the Internal Security Department and Home Affairs (best not to name names). He is responsible for internal security and public safety. How can he let this happen, especially in a place Singapore? I know I would sack him and other people immedietly if I were PM and I think other countries would as well. It's also very interesting to see that only low-ranking ministers speak. Where are the big people like the PM, MM and SM? I'm sure they will have something to say too. Anyway, I better not saying more...I may get sued for this. I think it'll be very interesting to see how things develop. :)

Secretary!

2008-02-23T23:23:00.002+08:00

Yay! I'm the new secretary of Debates! *is very happy and pleased with myself* >.< At last I have something concrete in my SGC. It's so sad that Nana had to leave though, Debates won't be the same without her or just as fun.

Anyway, the NUS History Seminar was held today at the Asian Civillisations Museum. It was pretty interesting....not to mention amusing. I'm so pleased to see the script Aaron and I wrote and put so much effort in come to life. Unfortunately, the play didn't go as well as planned. Cindy pressed the gunshot sound button even before Xavier and Aaron lifted up their guns. Quite awkward obviously...the audience laughed when that happened. Anyway, MJ won which is quite a surprise. I wasn't really particulary impressed with their performace. NJ was the best though, they were really good. We also got the chance to view all the exhibits at the museum for free! Including the Nalanda trail exhibit which was quite an eye-opener. Ohhh! I saw Jasper from RJ acting as a retarded Japanese farmer too! Hahaha it was so funny. We had fun definitely. Special thanks to those who made the history seminar a success!

Once that was done, Aaron, Xavier, Yun Lin and I went to the Mcdonalds at Boat Quay. I think that was the most interesting outlet I've ever been too. The entrance was small, obscure and easy to miss but once you go upstairs, it's like some neo-classical intellectual coffeehouse although it hardly was.

Today was a fun day!

Chinese New Year

2008-02-07T23:29:00.000+08:00

For some odd reason, this year's Chinese New Year does not even feel like CNY. I can't seem to get into the festive mood...maybe because of school work and stress. Anyway this year's CNY's very strange. People are coming late and some are not turning up at all. The whole visiting schedule has also be changed...so that means less HB and more weirdness. How fun.But anyway I guess it's good that there's a 4 day holiday. I can finally get some R&R after awhile. CSE IS is killing me. I hope this constant feeling of stress and worry will go away soon. I think I'm going to go mental if this continues on. :S

Meh.

2008-01-22T19:33:00.000+08:00

I think what Aaron said the other day was right, I am getting more and more angsty lately. Grrr, I can't help it though, almost everything is starting to irritate me even if its something trivial. I'm also getting the feeling that I'm starting to alienate everyone. I hate the stress of being in J2. My plans have not been going to plan and it doesn't help that unexpected, unplesant things come up all the time....like having to remain in school for an extra 1.5 hours for CLB. God I hate the language policy. Because of it, I end school after 5pm 4 times a week. How the hell am I suppose to study and have a social life when I spend more hours in school than my parents do at work. And because of the late hours, I'm having problems studying at home cos I usually collapse on my bed once I get home. I don't have the time or energy to exercise and train for NAPFA. I'm pretty much condemned to failing it. Stupid school. First, they let us end late, then they say that I have to stay back for 1.5 hours for CLB, then they expect everyone to get silver for NAPFA, then they start punishing the boys if the teachers don't like their attitude, then they go on to torture the fat people by making them come back on Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays for extra training. Hello YJ! I have PE everyday now expect on Monday! Humph. I'm pissed that I have to study so hard, I'm pissed that I'm overweight, I'm pissed that I have to enter NS early and not be able to do an internship and other nonsense that I want to do after A levels are over, I'm pissed that I'm not a genius, I'm pissed that I'm not doing well in school, I'm pissed that my personality is so bleah, I'm pissed that I give myself so much stress, and most of all, I'm pissed that I've brought all of this to myself. Everything would have been much better if I wasn't so stupid when I was young. So many people have it so much easier than me. I wish I were them, then I will not need to deal with these trivial, stupid and nonsensical problems.

Life sucks at J2. Dammit.

Happy New Year!

2008-01-01T01:45:00.000+08:00

After seeing Sydney's countdown on TV, Singapore's countdown looks like shite. Anyway, I went to the countdown by myself and thank god I did, by the time I walked to the Esplanade Bridge, it was insanely packed and crowded and everyone was shuffling around like salmon moving against the tide of inconsiderate people sitting on the floor. I think the Bangladeshis can teach a thing or two about shuffing. They seem to be really damn good at it what with them placing their hands on the sholders of another person and pushing like a train. Gotta admit that it was amusing seeing people being pushed back when they're trying to push forward. There was even this girl who shouted vulgarities like nobody's business lol. Tsk tsk tsk. Lady, have you left your manners in the toilet? Anyway this year's fireworks were not as nice as last year's I think. I also had an uncomfortable train ride home. I was unfortunate enough to site beside a fat, no fat's too kind, this obese person who came lumbering through the door and sat beside me. I felt squashed cos I was sitting at the end of the row of seats where a glass panel seperates the sits and the doors. I could not even move my hands freely. What's worse was that that person fell asleep and his head...and body started to sway to press against mine, making me much more frustrated. And to top it off, he has the worse case of dandruff I've ever seen. It's like...all over his hair with huge chunks at the ends. I took pics of him...secretly of course. Take a look!

Dandruff-laden hair

Ta dah! The person who was squshing me

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! >.<

Bored to death

2007-12-03T14:05:00.000+08:00

I'm so sad! Spent the last 3 days glued to Youtube watching this great British drama called Hollyoaks and I've finished watching all 155 clips avaliable! I wish they'd show it here; it's a great show. I should be able to catch more episodes when I'm in London anyway so...yay. Now I have nothing to do and bored to death *sobs*. Anyway enjoy this clip from the show, it's quite funny and cute. It's about this guy called Craig going out with a girl he likes called Sarah on their first date. Ignore the front bits if the video, it's redundant unless you've watched it from the first episode.

I feel quite guilty for not studying the entire time for some odd reason. Something must be wrong with me bleah. I cant believe we have so little time to enjoy. YJ ate up 2 weeks of my holiday! I found out that I could do H1 Biology even if I did not do it in sec. school. I went ballistic after I saw the pre-requites again when I visited the YJ website. Ugh I've completely screwed up my entire JC life. If I could turn back time I'd drop Econs and Maths for Bio and something else to replace Econs but I obviously can't. So I shall start mugging once I get back from Europe. Rawr I don't want to do Maths...but I shall force myself to if I want to get at least a C for A Levels. Next year is going to be hell I bet.

I've also fixed my camera! Cost me $188 altogether. Bloody Hell. If I had the warrenty with me I'd save $60 for the service charge but I could'nt find it at home. Spent the entire night before pissy mood finding it. But that's ok! At least I got my camera before I leave for my holiday so I dont have to borrow anyone's camera! I'm excited about this holiday. My parents are finally bringing me to Europe after a 3 year delay. 4 more days to go! :D

Specially for Freckles

2007-11-23T23:05:00.003+08:00

Ok. Freckles feels left out so I shall dedicate this post to her. Freckles! This is for you! I've even included you in my link. I also took the liberty to make a DP for myself too! Do you like it?

Shopping

2007-11-23T22:27:00.001+08:00

Spent the entire day out at Orchard Road today with XY, little girl and my mother later on. We walked around Ngee Ann City trying to find XY's perfect jacket and after looking at Giordano, Zara, Timberland, Guess and Celvin Kleine, he finally found a nice one at British India...of all places. Anyway we suddenly talked about the girl who got 294 for PSLE this year and ranted on how we wished we got her marks hahaha. XY didnt buy that jacket in the end because it was $289. So we walked a little more and stumbled on another jacket he liked at Takashimaya and bought it. Went to Coffee Bean and talked for while before heading to Burger King to talk again! And then for some odd reason, 6 hours magically flew pass by and the both of them went home. Oh yeah we took a picture of XY too.

Kinky. Credits to YL for the photo.

Met my mother after that and did more shopping. I bought a really nice polo shirt from GAP! :D I've been searching for one for a very long time. Anyway that concludes my day. I shall binge on a tube of Ben & Jerrys now.

First post

2007-11-22T23:52:00.000+08:00

I am Reuven and this is my blog! Little girl asked me to post something so there, first post, da daa daaaaaaaa! First Post :D Okays, little girl wants me to make the post longer so I shall do that. Went out with Nora the other day, had a nice meal with her at Fish & Co. although we had to share. The New York fish & chips was orgasmic. Anyway Nora looked amusingly stunning and different that day so I asked her to pose and took some pictures of her. Have a look for yourself.

Look at her posture, it's so upright. Total sign of confidence.